Forget The Fear
Lately, I have been really struggling with what to do with my life. I mean, this isn’t a recent struggle, this is something that has been weighing heavy on me for a few years. I’m thankful that I have a stable career with an insanely flexible work environment (yes, I work from home) but I know that I want to do more than my corporate job. I just feel like I was made for more than my everyday career and I have been asking the Lord what it is He has for me for so long. Have you ever been there before? Wondering if there will ever be anything more than what you are doing right now? Thinking that you were made for more but slowly thinking that what if, just maybe, you weren’t and this, right now, is what your forever looks like?
It almost feels scary and overwhelming to admit this, but it’s time I finally do. All these years I have been asking God to show me my purpose, show me what’s next, show me what He has for me, and the only thing standing in the way of His answers to those questions and a future outside my corporate job is fear. Yep, you heard that right. Fear. The other day I heard Rachel Hollis say that fear is selfish, and the more I have reflected on that, the more I have come to see that that is 100% true. Fear is selfish. Fear is what keeps us from doing what we are truly called to do. Fear is what keeps someone else from hearing the encouraging word they needed because we decided not to share it. Fear is us choosing to believe that we aren’t good enough, smart enough, qualified enough, or big enough to do what the true desires of our hearts are leading us towards. Fear is letting Satan win. And when we think about that, I mean really say those words out loud and think about the weight of what that means, I’m sure we can all agree that never in a million years would we so casually throw in the towel at the expense of the enemy.
So going forward, I am going to start leaning into what I feel the Lord is calling me to. I don’t know what my purpose is or what He has for me, but I know that if I continue to let fear keep me from being a vessel for Him, I will never find out. I am going to be sharing more and if that’s not cool with you, then I promise, not hurt feelings.
Friends, if you are in a season of complacency, if you are going along with your day-to-day responsibilities but are craving something more, I would encourage you to ask yourself what is holding you back. And if it’s fear, in any capacity, then it’s time you dropkick that thing in the face okay! If you want to live a full life you have to start living fully and that means being open to the vulnerable, authentic, hard opportunities that are lying before you. You are not alone in this. Let’s go do more, together.